Like bare trees in winter, my body now stands without what once felt essential — changed, exposed, quieter. At first, the loss felt like emptiness, like something beautiful had been taken and nothing left behind. But winter trees are not dead; they are conserving life deep within, holding strength in their roots, preparing for a season no one can yet see.
Losing my breasts to cancer did not strip me of womanhood, tenderness, or worth — it revealed the deeper structure of who I am. What remains is not absence, but endurance. Not ruin, but survival made visible. Like those stark branches reaching into a cold sky, I am still here, still growing in ways that don’t always look like growth.
Spring does not ask the tree to replace what was lost; it simply brings new life in a different form. I am learning to believe that something within me is also quietly preparing to bloom — not the same as before, but no less real, no less beautiful, and perhaps even stronger for having endured the winter.