In quiet contemplation of my journey.

In quiet contemplation on a year that fled in a wink of an eye,  I know many things have changed. A mixture of much heart burns and also the little blessings that  meant a lot to me. I think of all the lessons that life taught me the hard way, letting me know where I stand in everyone's life. Life always goes by and we keep learning to adjust to the new norms of life, though some come with a pain that is raw and real. I guess I could say that life moved on in spite of everything  though it doesn't seem the right thing to say because it is an adjustment, a compromise, a sacrifice and my heart moved on in spite of all that came my way to hurt me and made me stronger.

It was an eye-opener year for me, which the cataract of the eyes dissolved making me see everything in a new perspective. I feel thankful to the creeping crab, the emperor of all maladies, for being continuously in love with me, making me realize that it is high time I pampered myself and also for making me value every moment I am given to pursue the things that meant a lot to me. The physical pains made me realize that I was strong enough to endure all the pain inflicted upon me, be it physical or psychological.


I have always been one to take every day as it comes with the blessing and the challenges, em,bracing my present moments without dwelling in all that taught me great lessons the hard way. A year that has gone past is always a period of transition in one way of the other. A time to introspect and reflect upon the mistakes,  the wrongs and rights. A year of poignant awareness of what I lost,  the struggles through my pains and challenges; appreciation of all the blessings that came my way, be it heartaches or moments to cherish.


As I reflect upon myself, I realize I have made mistakes, may be hurt others directly or indirectly, that made my rebelling mind question myself, to a sincere reflection in my journey of life. As the year ends, I reflect upon all that little things that meant a lot to me. Those that gave me an urge to forget all my pains to accomplish that which  was a dream, I dared to hope for after several years.


As the count down begins, I take this time of reflection, to look back, remember and learn. To do what makes me happy because when I look back I feel I should have my worth of happiness doing what makes me happy. The last three years gave me lot of challenges that I withstood with a smile, daring to question all that came to attack me physically. The year is is a powerful time to celebrate yourself and also a time of reflection and resolutions hoping for a bright new year, with new challenges to face.


I learnt those lessons that made me realize what I mean to everyone in my life. I learned the hard way that anyone can block you and remove you from the friend list  in a jiffy with no regrets. I learned that the love and care can get changed in a blink of an eye, with no reasons. I learned that what even challenges I have gone through are my own and very few understand the impact it would have caused me. I learned that possibly many wold be happy that I went through a lot of pain and very few genuinely tried to understand my journey through life. I learned that even my close ones, can betray me and also break my trust by conveying whatever I voiced to others.


To put it in a nut shell, I learned the hard way that it is best to be like a turtle in its own shell, minding  own path of life, doing what makes me happy irrespective of what anyone thinks. A time to live for myself also, doing the little things that mean a lot tome, things that make me happy enjoying every moment of life and achieving the goal I set for myself in the fulfillment of a dream. I thank all who have been a part of my life, as I think life is a continuous learning process and I learn from everyone something new. Every challenge is new and I look at it as something new that I could learn from.