A foresight of life through my eyes.

A vision is something you foresee for your life, but you can only foresee and fulfill it if  the vision of your eyes is intact till the end of your life.  A foresight is looking at life through a telescope. A foresight is never used to take care of the eyes that gives you vision till it is too late. Just like a tired body aches, the tired eyes to ache, but little heed is given to it till it is too late.

I had been feeling that even after a cataract surgery my power was increasing. I voiced it to my doctor, she said may be a film is covering the lens, go meet your eye doctor. I delayed it for three weeks, giving priority to other things at home and life. Yesterday I went to the doctor, and I explained my predicament to him. After initial look into my eyes through his  opthalmoscope, he told me that he has to get my eyes dilated. 

After dilating my eyes, I went in and he had a look at it properly and told me there is nothing to worry, just that my retina was a little weak. Though that did shake me up a little, I mused to myself, may be another challenge of a different kind. I asked him for the reasons for it and was told that for some people the radiation and chemotherapy can give that after effect. Apart from the trauma you have to go through while undergoing the treatment, I realized the real problems of the treatment of cancer, is the long term after effect an individual has to go through.  When you get cancer it invades your whole body in a way. 

I came back home, and got a forward about a dinner in the dark organised by three blind people, and was just thinking about it gazing outside , sitting on the steps in front. Just then, the street lights and the lights in front of each building started burning. I just looked at each light and realized I was seeing an aura around each light, that looked like a flower with many colors in it and I had not seen that till now. Suddenly I realized that it was due to the dilated pupils that I saw that beautiful sight. I was suddenly happy for that little blessing of viewing such a wonderful sight that made me happy. My little worry about my retina just disappeared  and I thought let me just enjoy the moment, something I learned from the butterflies that flutter around me daily.

I still had the vision to enjoy everything around me and that is what mattered. I have never worried about what can happen, lived the moments of my life feeling blessed for the little blessings that always meant a lot to me.

 “Attitude is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, money, circumstances, than failures and success, than what other people think, say, or do. It is more important than appearance, ability, or skill. It will make or break a business, a home, a friendship, an organization. The remarkable thing is I have a choice every day of what my attitude will be. I cannot change my past. I cannot change the actions of others. I cannot change the inevitable. The only thing I can change is attitude. Life is ten percent what happens to me and ninety percent how I react to it.” Charles R. Swindoll