The tree of life is a magical concept of life that transcends the reality, touching the subconscious beyond the undefined and is a source of strength. Its meaning is varied and in various forms. It does ignite the imagination and bring out vivid images as a quest in a man's mind. Trees present many analogies to human development, representing a lot of things like wisdom, protection, strength, bounty, beauty and redemption and the art of giving selflessly. The tree depicts the true self as a positive symbol both in spirits and body.
A tree needs soil, water, air and sun to survive and so do human beings. Man is like a tree capable of withstanding any storm or challenges without complaining, but it differs from man to man. Though vulnerable to all the trends, knows how to deal with it. A tree is never dead, similarly mental catastrophe hits, but if deprived of a positive drive, everything is finished. Just as trees undergo season changes, man too experiences them. After undergoing drastic changes in autumn that makes it lifeless, when beautiful spring falls, it becomes lively and rejuvenated with beautiful branches, leaves, flowers and fruits that are regenerated. They regain beauty and for man too after tough times good tidings flow into life.
Sitting in my empty nest, going through the contemplative journey of life, quietly reflecting I started wondering if age was catching on or if it was my health that made me sensitive and sentimental. Time and again, the threat and challenges that came to weaken my very foundation and my hard built fortress of strength, could be the reason for such thoughts. Fighting my worst battle of life, where my mind and body, were at loggerheads. My emotions playing havoc and trying to make me a wreck. So I decided to shake it off by restarting all that I loved doing the most. There was a time I used to do a lot of embroidery and craft work, that I gifted my friends and loved ones. I decided to get back to it, little at a time, not exerting my hands; then reading and writing which I love. My hubby expressed surprise at my irritability and according to him 'cribbing' from a person who was a cool cucumber. For a second I felt I was being taken for granted and nobody was understanding my inner fight and struggle with cancer, nor the trauma I was going through; my duty was to just keep performing without a murmur whatsoever.
My realization came by, when I thought why in the first place I was expecting others to understand my pain. My pain was and is my own, a fight with myself, my mind, heart, body and cancer. I decided to fight it out alone with myself, expecting very little or nothing at all and find my joy in what I do and in fulfilling my little dreams, keeping a detached attachment with everyone. There is a framed photograph of a tree presented to me by one of my brats and another one by my bedside of a lone tree, which fills me with a kind of peace whenever I look at it. I sat looking at it for sometime and thought why not take the concept of that tree. A tree and man are always inter-dependent for many things, but be like a tree without mental dependency. Then you are able to carry on, facing everything in life with a glowing smile. I will not allow myself to get unnerved in such a way that my loved ones feel the brunt of it or weaken my fortress of strength whatever happens. A rebel and born fighter who likes to question every why, what, when, who, where and how, decided to follow the 'Five W's of life'. The quote says,
"WHO you are is what makes you special, do not change for anyone.
WHAT lies ahead will always be a mystery. Do not be afraid to explore.
WHEN life pushes you over, push back even harder.
WHERE there are choices to make, make the one you won't regret.
WHY things happen will never be certain. Take it in your stride and move forward."
I decided to be a solace, strong fortress of strength to my loved ones with a strong and loving clasp allowing them a lot of space, that always makes them return seeking it, feeling secure and expecting nothing in return.
I am not worried about what others think of me or talk about me. My life and my fight is mine alone. I will keep doing my part always, not worrying about anything. This is not a boundary to protect myself, but not to hurt others. It is just trying to control the heart with my mind, because my loved ones are my only weakness, where my fight is the toughest.. In my fight with life, I learnt that I could learn a lot from nature. That is how I compared life to a tree, rain, dewdrops, the sea, the river, the fallen leaves and sunsets. There are many other sources of inspiration from nature. It gives me a sense of peace and oneness. I don't want to be a slave to my feelings, but one who balances it in all ways.
Whenever one flies away from my nest to grow in life, the absence and presence, makes me miss and feel about it and I don't hear anything from them. But I detach myself from that feeling, so that it doesn't grow inside me to make me miserable. I find ways to come out of it and make an effort to fight out those feelings and get used to it. I would rather fight it out even though I miss them. It is the greatest asset to be able to navigate your emotions and turn it to a purely positive one.
A tree needs soil, water, air and sun to survive and so do human beings. Man is like a tree capable of withstanding any storm or challenges without complaining, but it differs from man to man. Though vulnerable to all the trends, knows how to deal with it. A tree is never dead, similarly mental catastrophe hits, but if deprived of a positive drive, everything is finished. Just as trees undergo season changes, man too experiences them. After undergoing drastic changes in autumn that makes it lifeless, when beautiful spring falls, it becomes lively and rejuvenated with beautiful branches, leaves, flowers and fruits that are regenerated. They regain beauty and for man too after tough times good tidings flow into life.
Sitting in my empty nest, going through the contemplative journey of life, quietly reflecting I started wondering if age was catching on or if it was my health that made me sensitive and sentimental. Time and again, the threat and challenges that came to weaken my very foundation and my hard built fortress of strength, could be the reason for such thoughts. Fighting my worst battle of life, where my mind and body, were at loggerheads. My emotions playing havoc and trying to make me a wreck. So I decided to shake it off by restarting all that I loved doing the most. There was a time I used to do a lot of embroidery and craft work, that I gifted my friends and loved ones. I decided to get back to it, little at a time, not exerting my hands; then reading and writing which I love. My hubby expressed surprise at my irritability and according to him 'cribbing' from a person who was a cool cucumber. For a second I felt I was being taken for granted and nobody was understanding my inner fight and struggle with cancer, nor the trauma I was going through; my duty was to just keep performing without a murmur whatsoever.
My realization came by, when I thought why in the first place I was expecting others to understand my pain. My pain was and is my own, a fight with myself, my mind, heart, body and cancer. I decided to fight it out alone with myself, expecting very little or nothing at all and find my joy in what I do and in fulfilling my little dreams, keeping a detached attachment with everyone. There is a framed photograph of a tree presented to me by one of my brats and another one by my bedside of a lone tree, which fills me with a kind of peace whenever I look at it. I sat looking at it for sometime and thought why not take the concept of that tree. A tree and man are always inter-dependent for many things, but be like a tree without mental dependency. Then you are able to carry on, facing everything in life with a glowing smile. I will not allow myself to get unnerved in such a way that my loved ones feel the brunt of it or weaken my fortress of strength whatever happens. A rebel and born fighter who likes to question every why, what, when, who, where and how, decided to follow the 'Five W's of life'. The quote says,
"WHO you are is what makes you special, do not change for anyone.
WHAT lies ahead will always be a mystery. Do not be afraid to explore.
WHEN life pushes you over, push back even harder.
WHERE there are choices to make, make the one you won't regret.
WHY things happen will never be certain. Take it in your stride and move forward."
I decided to be a solace, strong fortress of strength to my loved ones with a strong and loving clasp allowing them a lot of space, that always makes them return seeking it, feeling secure and expecting nothing in return.
I am not worried about what others think of me or talk about me. My life and my fight is mine alone. I will keep doing my part always, not worrying about anything. This is not a boundary to protect myself, but not to hurt others. It is just trying to control the heart with my mind, because my loved ones are my only weakness, where my fight is the toughest.. In my fight with life, I learnt that I could learn a lot from nature. That is how I compared life to a tree, rain, dewdrops, the sea, the river, the fallen leaves and sunsets. There are many other sources of inspiration from nature. It gives me a sense of peace and oneness. I don't want to be a slave to my feelings, but one who balances it in all ways.
Whenever one flies away from my nest to grow in life, the absence and presence, makes me miss and feel about it and I don't hear anything from them. But I detach myself from that feeling, so that it doesn't grow inside me to make me miserable. I find ways to come out of it and make an effort to fight out those feelings and get used to it. I would rather fight it out even though I miss them. It is the greatest asset to be able to navigate your emotions and turn it to a purely positive one.
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Beautiful thoughts, worth reflecting on..
Thank you:-)
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